The Art of Pen

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙄: 𝙊𝙛𝙛 𝙩𝙤 𝙉𝙚𝙬 𝙔𝙤𝙧𝙠 I was raised between mountains and hills. Listening to the singing of birds from nearby jungle and beholding the dancing leaves. Sitting on the seesaw made of rough plank and skating on the board made of old jerrycan. I grew with dust and dusty friends. We had less of possessions and more of laughter and happiness. I was born in one of the remotest districts of Bhutan called Dagana!  I was lucky. Many of my relatives live in United Kingdom and few of them in United States of America where the weight of dollar is heavier than the weight of ngultrums.  But, when I compare the weight of currencies, I am not hungry about money. People say that food, water, air and shelter are basic necessities for survival. When I think about it, yes! They were basic necessities when the human race was evolving. Now, world has changed and I feel that basic necessities are not food, water, air and shelter! I think it is money! If you have lot of money,...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚇𝙸: 𝙸 𝚆𝚎𝚕𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙽𝚎𝚠 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝙵𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 After the drama at the store, Tashi was taken by police. The owner was worried about me and she let me go home early that day.  “Lhamo! You must stand up for your own right. Man cannot come and torture you. They cannot threaten you with such kind of act”. The owner said. “He was my husband and we were married according to the wishes of our parents. After coming here, he changed. He considered our marriage as divorced. We don’t even have marriage certificate. I thought to report to the court but I am just turning seventeen. All our parents would be in big trouble”, I explained her everything starting from sickness to giving up of education and coming to Thimphu. “You have a matured mind. You could even think of your parents. As you said, they will be in big trouble. The marriage will be considered invalid by the court and they will punish people involved in arranging the marriage”, the owner s...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚇: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚊 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚂𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚎 The following day, aunt visited me again. As soon as she knocked the door, I was expecting something good to hear. I could see it in her eyes. “Lhamo, I am here to drink tea again”. She joked  “You can visit me here everyday. I like spending time with you”, I expressed how happy I was to be with her, and even it was for few minutes. “My friend wants you as the sale girl in her store. Congratulations! You can join your duty from tomorrow. It is the perfect time for you. Tomorrow is the first day of July. The salary will be discussed when we go tomorrow”. Aunt was with the good news as I have expected from her smile. “Thank you so much. I will always remain in your debt. I can’t thank you enough”. “Where is Tashi? Didn’t he come home yesterday?” “He came and he left. He had been acting weird since the day we moved here. I knew why he was desperate to move out. He told me that he is in love with one of the girls in drayang. H...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙸𝚇: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚘𝚛 𝙰𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎? “Lhamo! Lhamo!” A familiar voice of a woman entered through my ears.  Immediately, I opened my eyes and wiped my tears. Unfortunately, I could not dry my clothes which were drenched heavily with the rain. I turned myself as if nothing had happened. “What are you doing here in the rain?” The familiar woman was Tashi’s aunt who had been my hostage for a month. She was driving the car that uncle used to drive. “While I was running from the shop, I lost one of my slippers down the bridge. Now, it has been washed away”, I showed my left foot which was without a slipper. I threw the slipper intentionally and I was about to throw the other too. “Where are you heading, aunt?” I asked her. “I am here to visit you. I hope everything is good. Get into the car! You are getting wetter. Let’s talk once we are home!” Aunt escorted me into her umbrella and we drove back home .  Aunt was visiting our house for the first time and she was sta...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚅𝙸𝙸𝙸: 𝙸 𝙳𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝙲𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚒𝚝 𝚊 𝚂𝚞𝚒𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎 I have never expected such an unimaginable reaction from the boy who agreed to my mother. She trusted him more than herself and offered me as his wife.  Giving up education on the name of sickness, I agreed to marry to him. After marrying at the mid teen, I have agreed to listen to his ideas of making our life better.  All the way from Tashiyangtse, I have agreed to come to Thimphu with him. After reaching Thimphu, I was like a person holding the Rubik’s Cube for the first time yet I acted like one of the residents of Thimphu.  Since the night we shifted to our own rented house and since the night I informed him about the pregnancy, I became the saddest person. I had to cry day and night regretting about my decision. I believe, my mother decided what best for me but my life was turning into a Bhutanese movie with tragic ending. I remembered Tashi’s mom. She told me to inform her whe...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚅𝙸𝙸: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙽𝚎𝚠 𝙷𝚘𝚖𝚎 “Uncle and aunt, we are very grateful for your hospitality and generosity. We had been your burden for a month. Yesterday, Lhamo and I have discussed about moving out”, Tashi brought the topic during breakfast. “What about the house and necessities? You could have told us about moving out so that we could help you settle at your home. By the way, where is the house? It would be better if we are nearer. Uncle and I can guide you”, aunt was worried. “For few weeks, I was preparing myself for it. I have ordered utensils and beddings from Phuntsholing. One of my friends is a driver and he is coming today with all the necessities. I also looked for zakar and today is a good day to move out. We thought of talking about it yesterday but everyone was asleep”, Tashi explained.  “If you are ready and if you don’t feel comfortable here, you can move into your house. Hope you figured out the rent?” Uncle added. “The owner of the house said that the...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚅𝙸: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙽𝚎𝚠 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝙲𝚒𝚝𝚢 As I have told earlier, I grew up in a small village in eastern Bhutan. Suddenly, I was there among thousands of people. Back in the village, I knew all the people. I called them neighbours. There in Thimphu, I had to call everyone in general. I had to call men ‘uncles’ and women ‘aunts’. I didn’t know their names and they were complete strangers.  Luckily, Tashi had his own uncle who grew up in Thimphu. He was there at the bus station to pick us up. We got into his car and we were leaving to his house. “Uncle, do you stay at the same building you had been staying for last couple of years?” Tashi asked. “Yes! I am staying in the same house. How are parents doing at home?” Uncle returned the question. “They are doing well so far”, Tashi replied “Who is she? Is she a student?” Uncle again asked about me. Tashi laughed as he heard the question, “She is my wife. I am married to her recently. She has been a student but she had...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚅: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚂𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍 𝙳𝚎𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎 As a matter of a family, I had to take part in discussion. But, I had to think it over. I dropped out from school to be with my mom and help her as she was getting old. My husband as a Gomchen, didn’t have a better option to earn a living. We would be parents of our own children soon. Then, we will have a responsibility of taking care of our own children and our parents who were getting old.  “The probability of earning is better in Thimphu. It is the biggest city of Bhutan”, Tashi added. I thought for a while and replied, “If it is for the benefit of everyone, I am willing to accept everything. As long as we can survive ourselves and help our parents, I will be appreciative of what you are trying to do”. “But, remember, as soon as we earn enough, we should be back to the village to help our parents”, I added. After saying those, I looked at my mother’s eyes. She was giving me a beautiful smile. For me, nothing w...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙸𝚅: 𝚃𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙲𝚊𝚙𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝙲𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝙱𝚑𝚞𝚝𝚊𝚗 There was a strange feeling to wake up from the bed where I had been sleeping the previous night. Since my dad passed away, I had been sleeping with my only mom. In the school, I had my separate bed. As a little girl, I had never slept with the man on the same bed. I was still feeling shy that morning. Whenever I thought about the first night of my life with the man, I looked at my mother’s eyes.  For my surprise, there was no response from my mother. She slept with my father and then, they have together given a birth to me. Now, I am inheriting the cycle of sleeping with the man, a man who was not my choice but my mother’s.   In few days, I and my mom went to the school. We completed legal process of getting out of the school. “Thanks to all the teachers in the school. My daughter could learn till class nine because of all your support. Now, I have decided that I will take her home to help me. Without ...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙸𝙸𝙸: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚂𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚍 𝚁𝚒𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕 The parents of Gomchen Tashi were among the people who came for the ritual. “Ama, we had been good neighbours for many years and we will be happy to be good to each other for years to come. I am ready to accept your daughter as my daughter in-law”, his father spoke loud enough to be heard by all the people. “She is a good girl and we know her well. She can be a good wife and good daughter in-law. I will be happy to have her as my son’s wife. I feel that my son is old enough to get married”. His mother was excited about her son’s marriage. When she told us about the age of her son, I had to think about how old I was. I was just fifteen and he was two years older to me. I went to school and he had been Gomchen since he was six. Tashi was considered as one of the brightest gomchens in the village. Even Azha Lama was proud to have him as his student.  Gomchen Tashi became capable of performing ritual by himself. He had inherited a...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙸𝙸: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙰𝚗𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚛 The question was the most difficult question I have ever faced in my life. There were tougher questions in mathematics’ examinations.  Although they were tougher, none of them decided my life. They just decided a step, the next and closest grade. But, the question my mom asked me was to determine the twist and turns of life. My answer would be a mirror to shape my own life. There were lot of options like those in ‘Choose the most correct answer’ on the question papers. I have seen maximum of four options but on that day, I had many. Indeed, thousands of them. “If I choose one, would it be the most correct road to lead my life?” I asked myself. “If I decide to marry, my journey to the education will come to an end. What will I say when my friends come as government officials? Would not I feel shy after giving up on my education because of the sickness? Can I afford education after resting for years at home?” Those were sets of questions that ...

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙸: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚁𝚒𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕 𝚊𝚝 𝙷𝚘𝚖𝚎 “Azha lam and Gelong, good morning! Come inside”, my mom welcomed the spiritual head of our village along with few of young exciting monks. They were not really monks of who go to monastery to learn Buddhist text and scriptures. They were called lay monks. They follow a style of Gurukul of ancient India whereby several children of the village go to their master. By going to the master, they commit themselves to learn the tradition of Buddhist rituals in the village. They inherit the ancient tradition of the ritual and fulfill the need of rituals during sickness, death and auspicious Buddhist’s days like date ten and fifteen. “Lhamo! Get ready with the tea to be served to them”, my mom called me from the living room while I was hiding in the kitchen. “Why didn’t Lhamo go to the school? Everyone is in the school”, I heard Azha Lam asking my mom about why weren’t I at the school. “She is not feeling well these days. In the school, teach...

𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬, Today, I want to tell you all something really important. I am neither a parent nor a philosopher. I am just a college student who went through few tests in my life. In all these years, you have supported your children to go to school and trusted them with all the dreams you have. The beauty of all the Bhutanese parents I have seen so far was “Dear child, we don’t expect you to become the richest man or the richest woman but a child who can stand up on your feet”. Today is the day you won’t forget. Just yesterday, there were news flooding on social media announcing that results for class 12 would be out by today. I knew, all the parents are worried as much as your child who has just completed class 12. This result will determine another step of life. I would like to congratulate all those parents and students who could achieve good marks in examinations. You might be thinking of throwing a party for your child’s achievement. This would mean a world to your chil...

By the time Wangchuk returned from India, my life was like day and night. I was happy that he returned home but I was sad that he was postponing our marriage. Whenever his parents talk to him about the marriage, he would look for reasons to say that he is not ready. I was victim of trusting the wrong person again. “Ongchu, you have already agreed to marry with Lekyuen. We all agreed that you two will marry as soon as you reach here. Now, what is the reason that keeps you from pushing your marriage farther?”, the father scolded him infront of me. “See Apa! See Ama! I don’t mean that I will not marry with her. I am just telling that it is too early. She is a teacher. What do I have? I don’t have a job, I am still young and I am studying. Will not it be better if I marry after I become fully independent?”, Wangchuk shouted back at his parents. My eyes could not carry the loads of his words. Often I had to wipe my tears. The quarrel and chaos went on in the house. I was hel...

The old page of Love Book had closed and the new page had been unfolded. I didn’t know how it happened. By the time I realized in the afternoon of the next day, I had accepted him. He became the second man to come in my life. Did I accept him by loving him? I didn’t feel it so. I said ealier that I liked him and his personalities as a friend but we don’t love all the people whom we like. Love and like may sound similar but they are completely two different things. I appreciated who he was and I liked him as a friend. I was going through lot of mental stress. He helped me forget all of them. So, I could not deny him. I had to be in relationship with him out of infatuation. He became the second man to come into my life. At times, I thought that he was really serious about relationship. Soon, he had informed his parents about our relationship. I was starting to live in a miserable place in a better way. His parents would often visit my home bringing vegetables and other things. I ...